Sadness is almost never anything but a form of fatigue.
“Don’t bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This is not a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we’re in. If your little boy asks for a serving of fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? If your little girl asks for an egg, do you trick her with a spider? As bad as you are, you wouldn’t think of such a thing—you’re at least decent to your own children. And don’t you think the Father who conceived you in love will give the Holy Spirit when you ask him?”
~ Luke 11:13
The day is long, or the season, or the year…so long. You are so tired. It is so easy to stop looking for the light, and see the darkness. In the northeast right now, our weather has been much more wet than is usual for this time of year, and the lack of sunlight is making me conscious of how tired I am.
Yesterday, I forgot my lunch and had to go downtown. It was lovely driving down a long, heavily trafficked hill and seeing the water! It was grey, and the boats were bobbing like kids trying to see an exhibit. It calmed me.
I cannot answer for everyone in terms of what calms you, but if it is the mighty white pines or the lake waters, or a pond teeming with spring, or a set of rolling hills, find it today. Set your eyes on it. Try and see that one thing God has given you on the outside and praise God for it. Sing a praise song in your head, or right out loud. Blast it from your car as if you were a lone parade for the Spirit! The Spirit of God is just that close.
Holy Spirit by Bryan and Katie Towalt