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When I can’t, God can!

To live in this world, you must be able to do three things: to love what is mortal; to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it; and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go. 
                                                           ~ Mary Oliver

God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.

Glory to God in the church!
Glory to God in the Messiah, in Jesus!
Glory down all the generations!
Glory through all millennia! Oh, yes!

                                               ~ Ephesians 3:20-21

      A friend of mine used to say that God was so much more willing to help us than we are willing to ask.  This goes for just about everything.  I have been plagued with what I thought was a friendship for most of my adult life.  Subsequently, I missed out on what a healthy friendship looks like.  There are many I love, but have not reciprocated their invitations with invites of my own.  I judge myself before I even give them the opportunity, or, worse, I judge what I believe they will think of me once they have been to my home.  All of this based primarily upon a life time of a disappointing “best friend.”

    After reading the advice by Mary Oliver, a treasured poet and a practical one as well, I believe I have passed the holding on by about three decades.  Today, I believe I will write a litany of letting go for this friendship that shaped my life and ways of looking at friendship.  I am so thankful for some precious sisters in Christ who show me the love of God with every glance, with every action, even if we cannot see each other always.

     Today, consider beginning to let go of that thing or person that holds you back.  And don’t forget to ask God for help.

     Because of Him,



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Take it All

God takes everyone he loves through a desert. It is his cure for our wandering hearts, restlessly searching for a new Eden. 

     ~ Paul E. Miller
Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God: the powers that be are ordained of God.
     ~ Romans 13:1
     Classic.  Bad week.  One thing after another was a discouragement.  The list doesn’t matter.  I am sure you have your own.  It all broke loose during church yesterday when the crying I did in worship was more about pain than worship.  During the introit, during the anthem, during the postlude….all day, bitterness, disappointment, anger, lament pouring from my every pore.
     Who was there for me?  God, although I did not understand, my family who had to listen to my rants, cries, my church family – the ones in the building and the ones out there in cyberspace, my students who were extra loving…and then stillness, calm, peace, like the end of “A Day in the Life,” by the Beatles.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-Q9D4dcYng  (You need not listen to the while piece, just go to 4:04, and you will understand.)
     The orchestra builds to a fever pitch and then, resolve, stillness, peace.  Somewhere in the night, this miracle occurred.  Maybe I was spending too much time promoting me, and not enough time promoting the one who upholds me, I don’t know.  I only know that it is over, and Lord, it is yours.
My time, my talents, my tithe.  Take it all, my life’s in your hands.
Passion: My Heart is Yours, Kristian Stanfill
     I don’t know what you are going through, but I know who is holding you.  Rest in His scarred hands.
Because of Him,

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Give it All To God

Give thanks for what you are now, and keep fighting for what you want to be tomorrow.

 ~Fernanda Miramontes-Landeros
When a prophet or visionary gets up in your community and gives out a miracle-sign or wonder, and the miracle-sign or wonder that he gave out happens and he says, “Let’s follow other gods” (these are gods you know nothing about), “let’s worship them,” don’t pay any attention to what that prophet or visionary says. God, your God, is testing you to find out if you totally love him with everything you have in you. You are to follow only God, your God, hold him in deep reverence, keep his commandments, listen obediently to what he says, serve him—hold on to him for dear life!
 ~ Deuteronomy 13:4 
Teetering on the bring yesterday.  Basically good day until the time came to leave for a webinar (online seminar).  I had signed up, got a confirming email, knew the location.  I stopped to help a little one learn how to count by fives, I had time.  Got in my car, sang all the way to the location, walked in only to find out that I had arrived nearly an hour late.
I could feel the tears pooling, ready to flow.  I wanted to go, to run, to get as far from there as I could.  My colleagues invited me to stay.  Against my judgement I did.  As it turned out, I had failed to register for the webinar that I had showed up to, but I had registered for a different webinar, but I did not know this at the time. I cried all the way out, all the way home, until I got in the door where my husband just hugged me and the dog just wanted to go for a walk.  
My endorphin level was raised, I got a very unexpected phone call from a friend who moved some time ago.  All she wanted to do was tell me how much she loved me.  Okay, Lord, I get it, no pity party for me today.  
The Lord takes all of our offerings.  All of them.  Even the frustrated, tearful, stress filled ones at the end of an hour, a day, a life.
Give God what you have, not what you wish you had. Cling to God, not to the messengers, the prophets, the others. Give thanks for their role in your journey, but cling to God.  Give God ALL you got. Because God can do something with it…you just gotta give it up to Him. And give God thanks for who you are today.  
Evie – Give it All To Jesus
Because of Him,

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